Pleader, who had originally joined Baba to attain God-Realization, had recently returned from Bombay and had been confronting Baba for several days, saying, “According to your orders, I fasted for three years; I kept silence; I remained in seclusion; but up to now, you still have not shown me the sight of God!” However, Baba kept urging him to continue his unusual practices. The other men mandali did not practice such obvious penances or austerities. Their austerity was in obedience.
But one day during this period, Pleader could not control his obvious dejection and frustration, and Baba did not like it. Fed up with Pleader’s attitude, Baba called him and Pendu, and asked Pendu, “How long have you been with me?”
“Since 1922,” Pendu replied.
“What do you want from me?”
“Nothing!”
“Then why are you with me?”
“To serve you, to see to your pleasure and to do as you order.”
Sending Pendu away, Baba reprimanded Pleader, “Pendu has been with me for so many years, and you know how hard he works for me. Still, in return, he wants nothing! You, too, should create that mental attitude which will bring you, unasked for, that which you desire!” Baba then sent Pleader back to Bombay after giving him certain instructions.
–Lord Meher (First Ed), p2439
(www.lordmeher.org, Revised 2014, p2023)